Tuesday, January 18, 2011

My Love/Hate Relationship

My body and I were not always enemies. In high school, I ate whatever I wanted. Many times, lunch was Mazzio's pizza drenched in ranch with a Coke and chips from the vending machine. I was fit, wore a size 7/8 and was never self-concious about the way I looked. I loved wearing shorts and swimsuits in the summer. I don't remember when the scale started to creep up, I think it was my junior and senior year of college that I started to notice some weight gain.

When I graduated, I was still pretty happy with the way I looked. Then, I started my miserable job at KTEN and food became my comfort. I was too exhausted to keep up with a workout routine, but still wanted to eat like I always had. There were weeks of panic where I would try to diet and use the fitness center at the apartment complex, but I always fell back into my bad habits.

Summer of 2009, I was engaged and trying on wedding dresses. I had never felt fatter. My dream dress was at least two sizes two small, but I was resolute- I would finally lose the weight in time for the wedding. I should have added "and then keep it off" to that resolution.

I dropped 30 pounds in 6 months with a combination of back-to-back boot camp classes and a little bit healthier diet. I felt great and looked great in my dress, and I had the best intentions to keep going.....but almost a year later, I've put almost every pound back on.

It's so depressing. I love food and I love to eat. I do it to myself, and then beat myself up about it. Every day there's a battle inside of my head....I'm starving! This bag of chips really won't make that much of a difference. This garlic cheese bread is too good to waste. I can't say no!!!!! And I don't have time to work out.

I need to find a way to change my lifestyle but it seems so....impossible. I bought a Groupon for a boot camp class in Edmond, so if I could just find the motivation and the time to go 3 days a week, I might start caring about what I'm eating again. I would love to lose 40-50 lbs before our high school reunion (I'm dreaming).

Sigh.

Monday, January 17, 2011

The Battle is Over

After three frustrating, loooong months of arguing over a new couch selection, we made a decision yesterday and purchased one from I'O Metro!

As everyone who reads this blog already knows I gave in to the ginormous bigscreen TV for our living room and naturally felt I should have the final say in our couch.

Ryan and I flip-flopped over material....he started out wanting leather and I was violently opposed to the idea. Then, the more we looked, the more I realized how much more leather suited the overall modern feel to the house. But by then, Ryan had changed his mind and wanted fabric because it was more "comfy." Which I don't disagree, but I was now dead set on finding a (semi)comfortable leather couch...looks over comfort

I had been to I'O Metro twice and the second time I went without Ryan so I could take my time. I found an espresso brown leather sectional that was pretty comfortable, and would take up enough room to where we wouldn't have to purchase any separate pieces.



I brought Ryan in yesterday because he promised to compromise after he canceled the Dallas IKEA trip. To my huge surprise, he liked it enough to buy it! I was elated!!! Then we promptly got into another argument about whether we were getting a round (my choice) or a square (his choice) ottoman to go with it, lol. We had the store employees move one of the square tables over and Ryan realized that round was the way to go.

Hanging out in style.



It will be here in 6-8 weeks:)

Weekend Trip To Dallas

The weekend after NYE, Ryan and I wanted to check out furniture at IKEA so we planned a trip to Dallas. Of course, my main reason for going was to see Jenny, so when Ryan decided he didn't want to go through the hassle of renting a moving truck if we happened to find something we liked...I went ahead and hit I-35 after work Friday night.

When I got there, Jenny took me to a magical place. Eatzi's.



Here, we stocked up on mini bottles of wine, caprese salad, lasagna, tiramisu and Jenny got sushi. YUM. I could have stayed in that store for hours looking through everything they had and watching them bake bread and pastries. I am making it a "must visit" stop for Dallas weekends from now on.

Saturday, we slept in a bit, and then we went to eat breakfast at Buzz something. It was a cool coffeehouse atmosphere, and they served amazing breakfast!!! Once we (I) had eaten entirely too much, Jenny took me to IKEA where we spent the next 3 hours going through the ENTIRE store. This place is an institution!! We even had to take a break and split a $2 hot dog, chips and drink combo. I found some way cool stuff, including a desk, media center and some photo art that I liked. I will have to bring Ryan for real, so I can show him in person because the stuff is so cheap that we could afford to complete our living room right now!

Media center.



Cool zebra picture that I want but Ryan would never let me hang.



After IKEA, we saw Tangled at a nearby theatre. It was so cute. I don't think I will ever get too old for Disney movies, I can't wait to have kids and take them to every single one!

Sunday we woke up to snow and flurries. Jenny and I hit up Borders to buy the last installment in The Luxe series (she got me for Christmas and we are obsessed with it). Then I headed home before it got dark and the roads were in danger of freezing over.



I already can't wait to go back, it was such a fun weekend.

New Years Eve

The new blog is taking a bit longer than planned, so I decided to use the remainder of MLK Jr. Day to update a bit. It's easier that staging a protest, since it seems like we're the only company in the whole country that had to come to work today.

New Years Eve was a fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants kinda holiday this year. I had originally planned to hang out with Mallory, then wanted to go to Dallas with Mallory, then communication lines got crossed and she ended up making other plans bc she thought I was going to Dallas without her. Josh and Jana just happened to text me the day before to see what I was doing, so I decided to hook up with them since Wes was coming into town, and that group's always good for a fun night.

We planned to meet at Republic at 8, and then stay there drinking until midnight. Ryan was at the hospital, and I was sad I would not see him. I got there early to get on the waiting list for a table, and Ryan surprised me by showing up in his scrubs, haha. Everyone else got there a few minutes before they called our name and we all sat down to dinner. I tried the Scotch Egg, which was an egg rolled with sausage and then fried. It was yummy! Ryan and I got the fish and chips and all of us started trying new drinks. They have a crazy long beer list, and some fun cocktails.

Thank goodness for my iPhone camera.



Wes trying some "Moose Drool" beer.





Ryan had to leave, but we stayed for awhile until our bar tabs got too high. We didn't think it would be wise to stay until midnight, so after our waitress gave us party hats and noisemakers, we headed over to Josh and Jana's to wait for the ball to drop.



I am not sure what they were doing at this point...



We were all pretty sleepy by the time it happened. Wes got a NYE kiss from me, Jana, AND Josh and the dog. Then we went to bed.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Blog Under Construction

I have decided that I never want to post because I can't stand looking at my blog. The colors, the layout, everything.

And I don't like the pre-made designs you can get from other websites. They don't feel like "me."

So I have commissioned website builder extraordinaire, Patrick Moore, to design my very own blog website.

It is going to be fabulous, and it's already inspired it's own post so I have high hopes for the future blogging frequentness.

That's all for now. I will have to recap NYE soon!

Monday, December 27, 2010

Christmas Week

The week between Christmas and New Years Eve is always a little strange. It seems like nobody is working, and the next few days exist just to give everyone a little break from the madness of the holidays and to prepare to party on the 31st.

Even though I didn't get to spend Christmas with my family, I did enjoy spending time with Ryan's family and opening presents with them on Saturday.

Let me back up.

Christmas Eve, I was off from work at Crosby-Volmer. Ryan and I decided to get out and see if we could find a Christmas tree on sale. We stopped by Home Depot and didn't see anything. Then we passed by a furniture store called I'O Metro and decided to go take a look at their couches. We found a pretty cool one- it's a big sectional, very comfy, and the material is a velvety type. I'm not sure what to call it. The color is "taupe," but in the light it looks a bit grey? It's really different.

While we were in the store, a guy from Craigslist called. I have been trying to sell my old set of couches/coffee table/end tables for about 3 weeks and finally this guy wanted to buy it. We headed to the old house and met him there. He talked us down from $500 and we finally made a deal at $420. I was so annoyed, but I wanted to be rid of them. He had his nephew help him load them up, and kept telling me his wif would probably kill him when he brought them home. By the time he left, it was time for me to go to work at Upper Crust. I spent the rest of my night there.

When I got home at 10:00, Ryan wanted to exchange presents. I got him a master remote, so that when he gets his receiver, Blueray, TV and all his sound system equipment someday....we can control everything from one source. I also got him a nice brown sweater, and a green sweater from Dillards. He liked his presents!

But I LOVED mine. He got me this:



I have wanted a Coach wallet to match my purse ever since I bought it 3 years ago, but could never bring myself to buy one. I have already transferred everything to the new wallet, and since I can't stand for it to get anything on it.....I put it inside a ziplock bag before putting it in my purse. I'll leave it in there until someone sees it and makes fun of me.

The next day we went to Shawnee pretty early to visit his mom and Grandma Lane. We got his mom a matching hat and scarf that Ashlie knitted, and she loved it. We got his 78-year-old grandma a purple Snuggy, haha! She looked so cute wearing it.





About 1pm, we went to his other grandma's and stayed there the rest of the day. We had a giant feast for lunch, opened presents, and watched TV/hung out until it was time to go home. Ryan's dad bought us a new lawnmower, which was pretty exciting because I hate paying for boring stuff like that but we really needed one. :)

Sunday, I woke up at 6am to hit the sales! I had intended to go to Macy's to check out their kitchenware stuff, but on the way to the mall I decided to stop into Target and see if it was open. A line had formed, and the store opened just as I was parking. I grabbed a cart and made a beeline for the Christmas aisles. I picked up some wrapping paper, gift bags, lights, the usual....and then I saw they had some Christmas trees on sale! There was only one that I liked, and there were no more in the box. I asked an employee if I could buy the floor model, and she said yes. I called Ryan to come haul it away, and I was very pleased with myself. It's a pre-lit, 7.5 ft tree....and it's in the attic waiting until next year when I can finally decorate like I have always wanted to in my own house. I had to work at the restaurant again, so I dragged my spoils home and cleaned up a bit until I had to be there.

It was really busy during lunch and we were down a few people. I waited on 5 tables and made a good amount of $$. It put me in a great mood, since I had to write a check for the first mortgage payment when I got home. Ha! We used our Dirty Santa present from Dayton and Abby's party (AMC Movie Tickets) and went to see The Tourist. It was great! Johnny Depp is my favorite, and I couldn't stop staring at Angelina Jolie. She looked gorgeous....I am going to try to do my eye makeup like hers for NYE :)

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

New everything!

I'm on a 6 hour conference call (yes, I'm not making that up. Although to be fair, I think we are breaking for lunch and I'm taking a SUPER long lunch). I figured, what better time than now to update the neglected blog!

Last month passed in the blink of an eye. We finally closed on our first home on November 12th. It was a huge headache, and at the last second the loan company had to take Ryan off all the paperwork because we didn't receive some documents from Sallie Mae in time. They were to prove that he can defer his student loan payments from medical school for a few years until he starts making more money. So, now I'm the only one on the mortgage, and I was the only one signing everything when we closed. I think Ryan's ego took a little blow and he was not happy about it, but we wanted to move in without more delays and they convinced us it didn't matter. If we would have waited for Ryan's paperwork to go through, Jeff Click Homes said they didn't have any openings until December to do the walk-through and do all the closing stuff. I told Ryan he better be really nice to me since I own our house now, and he told me I better be really nice to him since I have a XXX,XXX loan hanging over my head. Haha!

The loan company bought us pizza and soda that night, and I bought champagne. We had our friends, Josh and Jana over to the old house to celebrate. My original plan was to spend our first night in the new house the day we closed, but it was so late by the time we were done at the loan office and it was cold and rainy....we never did have that romantic night alone. Ryan ended up spending the first night there by himself while I was on a business trip in Memphis.

Since the day we closed, we have slowly been moving in. I tell everyone, I will never do this again. Next time, it's U-Haul and ONE moving day. All the way. Last night was the first time I got serious and unpacked a lot of the boxes that have been sitting around everywhere. It's still a state of complete chaos over there, but I haven't had enough time to get everything situated. Jenny is coming to visit for the weekend (YAY!!!) so in between the U.C. shift tonight and the AEP Christmas party tomorrow night, I'm hoping to get some more put away before Friday evening.

I'm so excited that she'll be here, we have all kinds of fun plans! We're going to go eat at Upper Crust, see a matinee, go to a Christmas party at Abby and Daton's house, go Christmas shopping and she'll finally see the house. :) I will also have a fun update after all of that to post next week.

Since we left most of the furniture behind (it was either old and didn't match the feel of our new house, or it was Ryan's mom's stuff), we have a lot to buy. We started with a bedroom suite that we got a pretty good deal on from Suburban Contemporary Furniture. We love that store, it's got lots of cool, modern pieces, but everything is so expensive. I saw on the store's Facebook site that they had an italian dark wood bedroom suite that had been discontinued, and they were offering a pretty good price for it, AND it was a king-sized bed like we had been wanting. We bought that, and while we were in the store I fell in love with this linen colored leather couch. It is amazing, and I don't want anything else. The price is ridiculous, but I've been hoping it goes on sale.....I will wait until it does!

We bought a front-loading washer and dryer set. It took awhile before we found one that was the right price, but Ryan found a great deal on Veteran's Day at Home Depot. When it was time to deliver them, they called us to say the dryer had been damaged in the warehouse and did we still want it? I was so upset, because I wanted a brand new, pretty set. Ryan talked me into accepting it, it has a big crack in the plastic on the door and paint scratched off the front. It still works fine though, and we ended up getting an extra $250 off for the damage.

And finally, we bought a stainless steel french door fridge! It is massive, and it has a freezer on the bottom. Which is actually pretty cool, because now the fridge shelves are really long and hold tons of stuff. We can stick pizza boxes in there, no problem. It's beautiful and I'm really happy with it.

So, a quick update on the work situation- we lost the Regional Food Bank as a client, and I have to say that I am THRILLED. I hated working with their marketing manager. She's my age, and she's the bossiest, most obnoxious person I have ever met and it's a long story, but she tried to get me kicked off the account a year ago. I have loathed her ever since. But that means the situation at the office isn't the greatest. The same day we lost that account, the client we share office space with informed us that we needed to be out by the end of January. They said another company is coming in, and they don't have space for us anymore.

No local clients (except the mayor) and no office makes for a negative atmosphere around here lately. I applied for a job with the OKC Thunder and my fingers are crossed that I get a call for an interview. It's a PR/Marketing position and I would be working with one of my old friends from college, Vicki Guerra. She has the position right now, but I think she's getting a promotion. How cool would it be to work for the NBA? I think the pay would be good enough to where I could quit the restaurant job too.

That's all for now!